Quinquennial Freakout!!

Every five years, my brain grows robot legs, one of those little rotating saws, a desire to see the world, and tries to exit my head. In 2002 I up and left Missouri for New York. In 2007, I up and left New York for Seattle. Well we're creepin' up on 2012, and the little saw is a'buzzin in there.

But I already have a place to run away to all set up (if I didn't I'd probably be looking at teaching jobs in Copenhagen or something. Seriously, I do this)! So instead Brain is just bouncing around in there, making me feel all weird and insecure and terrible. In years past it's been all cry cry cry nobody loves me, I'm an annoying person and I'll be alone forever. This is the first year ever I haven't been able to get away with that one. I have beautiful, talented, supportive friends. I have a brilliant ex, who though he could barely stand me when we were together (I KID!!), still wants to hang out with me now that we're not . Someone even told me lately that I'm 'not as awkward as I think I am'. That is such a relief. I worry ALL the time. But I'm starting to realize how irrational that is, and that means I'm not insane all the way.

I've been watching this promo video non stop:

http://vimeo.com/7990368

This is going to be SO GOOD FOR ME. I hate leaving Seattle and my friends, especially with all the new babies that will be running around almost exactly when I leave. But I gotta fight the robot.

Also Chris bet me I couldn't learn Mills Mess in 2 months. If I do, he'll put 50$ in my clown fund.

Prepare to eat it.

(Mills Mess is this trick, but with less lookin' like a douchebag:)